Español (Feeling This entry #2)

So I've been trying to learn Spanish, and have been successful. Lately, I've had more conversations with friends in Spanish speaking countries, and have even been able to help people in my community in Spanish! This is all great, however, I feel down for some reason. It's almost like I've hit a road block in my progress. All of a sudden, I feel overwhelmed, and like I'm regressing. As I learn more and more material, I think it's just made me more scatterbrained. All of this is starting to take my motivation away from learning, which I don't want! This language has been fun to learn, and I continue to strive to learn more and more, but I also want to enjoy it and not overwhelm myself. Any suggestions on this? Either way, thanks for listening to my banter. Adios. (Haha 😉)

Feeling This [entry #1]

So I think I'm in love with this dude. By the way yes, I am gay. I have had "dates" in the past, my last one being in high school with a chick (keep in mind this was before I considered myself gay). However, I don't think I've ever truly felt "in love". In fact, I question if being "in love" is even a thing. Some people say you'll know when you're in love. On the flip side, others say that there's no such thing as "falling in love". This frankly has created more confusion within me. The feelings I have for this person are strong. I think about him almost everyday, even if I don't want to. Thoughts of him will just wander into my mind without my control, haha. When I see pictures of him, I feel so weird I can't even explain it. Its almost like my heart melts. I feel awkward and giddy. Ever seen those cartoons where the character is in love and you see those floating hearts around him/her? That's how I feel. Its also important to note that I don't feel or have ever felt like this towards any other person. While I do find him physically attractive, I feel an even deeper connection than that; I want to get to know this person, I want to meet this person, I want an actual conversation with this guy. It's way more than just a physical "lust" so to speak ("lust" is basically just sexual attraction). If anyone would like to share their experience with finding that special someone, I would love your input on this. That's all I got.

Intro

Official Tumblr

       Hey there, my name is Bryan. This is a new blog I'm starting called "Feeling This". Basically, I will be showcasing how I feel to the world; my thoughts, my feelings, my opinions of things, and etc. Hope you guys enjoy this and I'm able to inspire and encourage y'all!


P.S. I will also be posting these on my Tumblr page, which you can find the link to at the top left of this post titled "Official Tumblr".